Small talk

Please pray for my family and friend. 

ryantaehongkim:

BEFORE YOU READ THIS, BE STILL AND PRAY. 

My mom is going to die soon.

The doctor’s say that she only has a couple days to a week left, at most. 

Suffering is a brutal thing. It’s not even an option when you decide to follow Christ. Did you realize that? You will suffer. We all will. If you’re not suffering in your walk with Jesus then you’ve bubble wrapped yourself in a cozy room and decided to center your relationship with God around your comfort. To be honest I never thought I would have it this bad though. I never thought MY MOM would have it this bad because she’s such a fierce, zealous, and humble disciple of the Lord.

The hardest thing to believe is that God doesn’t think my mom has anything else left in this life to see or enjoy.

But maybe our sufferings aren’t really about us. Maybe this life isn’t about us. Maybe the whole world needs to know that, though we suffer ‘till death, we still have hope in Jesus. That Jesus satisfies every part of our soul, mind, and body. That we can die today, and we wouldn’t give a crap as long as we have Jesus. Maybe the whole world needs to know that we can and will be beaten, abandoned, depressed, persecuted, and destroyed and we won’t even flinch at this world’s trials because we have an everlasting Savior who promises us a furious love that will never relent.

My mom will not go out of this world without leaving a legacy that glorifies Jesus. Her legacy and God’s glory will shine through my preaching, your listening, and ultimately her death.

Did you hear that?

Her ultimate and final act of glorifying the King of Kings will be through her death. And so will mine.

With surrender, so will yours. 

We’ve clung onto this life for far too long. Death has been our fear for far too long. 

Let us let go of our lives and face suffering in the face to show the entire world that Jesus is alive and well, and one day He’s coming back to pay us back a thousand fold. 

Even as I write this I grit my teeth and shake in holy fury.

So grit your teeth, light ‘em up, and let it fly, in Jesus’ name.

Fan into flame, a passion for Your name, Jesus. In all of us. For die is to gain.

Amen.

“But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies. For we who live are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. So death is at work in us, but life in you.” -2 Corinthians 4:7-12.

“Remember my chains.” -Colossians 4:18.

P.S. I love you mom, so much. You will be missed and your story will be told to thousands everywhere in due time. God’s waiting.

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하나님, 오늘도 아름다운날을 주셔서 감사합니다. 하나님…솔직히, 저 요즘에 너무 힘들어요! 그래도 전 알아요…하나님은 한문을 닫으시면, 반드시 다른 문은 쿨~~ 하게 열어주시는거. 그래서, 저는 흔들리지 않아요. 믿음의 눈으로 보겠습니다. 힘들때도, 슬플때도, 기쁠때도…항상 나와 함께있는 친구. 예수님 따라 걷고, 예수님 따라 말씀읽고, 예수님 따라 복음을 땅끝까지 전하겠습니다!  예수만 사랑하기~ 예수만 닮아가기.~~~아멘

If God and I were in a court battle, it would probably be because I filed so many complaints against him. Yikes! I found myself complaining and asking for the wrong things. God, why am I struggling so much?  Where are the revelations of Truth? Where are the spirit filled prayers? But the truth was, I was only asking for his blessings. So I must asked myself, what should I do? The answer is, remember the cross. That in itself is enough, bigger than be biggest blessing ever. Focus on it, and everything else will be added.

Your name is like honey on my lips - Psalm 119:103
Your Spirits like water to my soul - John 7:37-38
Your word is a lamp unto my feet - Psalm 119:105

My favorite song.

I am going to make sure I invite Jesus to all my birthdays, because he gives me the best presents ever. 

Sometimes, right as I am about to fall asleep, God prods me to read his word. So then I start to pray even harder that I will knock out unconscious ASAP. Of course he doesn’t let me haha. So then I complain to him, that I am so tired. WAH! I give up so I groan, and reluctantly and roll over in bed to flip open my Bible. Its funny how God humbles you. If my child was like me, I would probably scold them. But no, he takes me into his lap and reads his Word to me. It’s absolute gold. And he gives me rest, the sweetest rest, in his Word. All I can say is… he would.

God does not refine me simply for the sake of self-improvement. God refines me to love him and to be a disciple for his kindgom. Many times I try with my own efforts to be the so called “good part of the fruit”. But time and time again, God reminds me that I am not the best at peeling my own peel. So I come just as I am, rotten and dirty, because God is the best peeler. After all, he knows his fruits inside and out :) 

If God had a fridge in heaven, this would be on it. It would say “Samantha and Me” because thats what it’s all about. And me being me, I would tape a piece of my hair to it so he can have something to remember me by (keke jk~).

I want Jesus to blush like these roses, when I confess my love to him. HAHA~ “I prayed to the LORD my God and confessed: “O Lord, the great and awesome God, who keeps his covenant of love with all who love him and obey his commands” -Daniel 9:4

Sometimes when I am sad, I become like David who asks where God is. But, every time I open my eyes, I realize that he is working so hard to get my attention. He forms the world so beautifully just for you and me.